Ramble a bit, go ahead anyway

Kinda in the zone,
but I got no clue
how I got here.

Kinda all done,
no clue
how I feel about it.

I could retrace my steps,
but I don’t see the exact
point,
that led me here.

I feel pumped,
but not rugged,
not even sluggish,
just here
and ready,
killing it,
but gently,
letting it down,
slowly.

Kinda wondering,
what’s coming next,
but do I care?

Kinda scared,
cause I can’t
pinpoint that moment.

Could I care less?
Yeah,
I will,
cause why can’t I say
“it’s great”,
when it’s great?

Life is playing it’s games,
but they are still life’s games,
I will only know it’s end-goal
when I’ve seen the end tho.

Accepting the positive unknown
is the same
as accepting the negative outcome,
both are kinda unclear
and will only be decided
in the moment,
that has yet to
reach it’s conclusion.

Am I on the next step tho?
Just a step further
towards my goal?

I couldn’t tell,
and even if I could,
what difference would it
make?

Kinda fired up,
kinda unsure,
but I take what I can get
and live in the moment,
cause it is the best
and might be the rest
of the time I have.